The hidden part of the iceberg at university.
Or “ why my biggest fear is not to fail a class ”.
- you have to get your muscles to do the right thing
- you have to be careful not to fall
- not to punch someone
- not to break anything
- not to forget what is in your hands
- not to drop or to throw anything
- all of these can happen if you don’t pay attention
- you have to focus
- to understand that someone is talking to you
- to understand that someone wants an answer
- to remember the sentences they/she/he said
- to understand it
- to know/find the answer
- to build a comprehensive sentence
- to say it
- to do all of these in few seconds
- to sleep, to study, to rest, to go to the hospital
- how many medical certificates can be accepted
- to manage with the planned and unplanned
- if you will need specific fittings for your exams
- if your body will be able to work the night shift
- if you can stay invisible or not as a spoonie
- if others can count on you in a group work
- if you can count on yourself (spoil: probably not)
- how to react to discrimination, ableism included
- how to react if the university want to dismiss you
- you may suffer like hell
- you may be in a huge conflict with your brain
Now, maybe you have an idea for what i’m anxious in my everyday student life. Every steps i wrote can be difficult or almost impossible for me.
But I am there, in the front row, recording the courses and sharing all the audios with the other students.
They compare their rankings to mine.
If only they knew.